Anonymous asked: why narcissism?
they told me it’s because i’m extremely envious of others, manipulative, use others to reach my own goals and a lack of empathy.
Anonymous asked: have you been diagnosed with anything during inpatient yet?
I’m diagnosed with personality disorder not otherwise specified consisting of Narcisism, borderline, obsessive compulsive & avoidant.
Also diagnosed with a tic disorder and major depressive disorder.
I’ve been all over the world, my boy, and everywhere I go people tell me about “the true God”. They all think they’ve found the right one!
The scene where Travis Bickle is talking to himself in the mirror was completely ad-libbed by Robert De Niro. The screenplay details just said, “Travis looks in the mirror.”
Anonymous asked: how's inpatient? and do you have some pictures?
it’s tough, really really tough. 2 weeks ago i went insane because i had been feeling really off for a week and i had to go to the hospital to get a ton of stitches and i broke a lot of stuff and i apparantly yelled at everyone and stuff and since then i’ve been feeling crappy, last week they had an emergency meeting with the whole team (socio therapy, psychiatrists, doctor assistant etc) and my parents about my stay and about the fact that they were worried and i might have to go somewhere more secure. luckily that didn’t happen, so yeah. though but i know i’m making progress even though it doesn’t seem like it, but i guess it’s worth it :) and yeh sure i have some pictures i’ll post them in a sec
As a society, we are fascinated by fictional psychopaths. Humankind has an ‘ongoing… fascination with tales of gruesome murders and evil villain. Popular culture abounds with depictions of the mad and the bad; and aberrant psychology has proved a fertile source of such material to the novelist and the reader alike. Perhaps no single disorder holds as much morbid cultural appeal as psychopathy.
There is no question… that readers feel empathy with and sympathy for fictional characters and other aspects of fictional worlds’, yet it is difficult to see how one can empathise and identify with a character who is himself incapable of empathy. If empathy and identification are both the goal and the reward of reading literature, then we are left with a striking ambivalence which needs to be explored.
Anonymous asked: how's inpatient now? how long have you been there?
Uhm i’ve been inpatient for 2 or 3 weeks now. And it has been good overall, i’ve become friends with the whole group and we’re all kind of close so that’s nice. Last week was kind of tough tho, i went to school for the first time in 7 months which was exhausting, i also suddenly stopped taking my meds without talking to my psych about it so i had really bad hallucinations/voices and felt really suicidal. Also this one girl cut herself for the first time ever and we all felt responsible for it so there was a lot of tension for a few days. And i’ve worked really on ‘myself’ because of normal therapy, creative arts therapy, music therapy and just kind of by being there. So yeah, its hard but i think it’s worth it and i made some new friends who i really like :)
1. Shailene Woodley is a brilliant actress and Golden Globe nominee. I cannot think of any 18-year-old actress who has received the kind of critical acclaim that she has (she also won an Independent Spirit Award).
She auditioned for The Fault in Our Stars not because she needs the part (I mean, she’s in the new Spider Man movie, for God’s sakes) but because she loves the book. Her depth of understanding were immediately obvious in the audition and for me there could be no one else to play Hazel. (There were a bunch of really good auditions, but Shailene just understood Hazel as I imagined her.)
I am not particularly concerned with physical looks; Hollywood can fix that stuff. (Remember when Nicole Kidman became Virginia Woolf?) I’m concerned with whether she can embody the voice and experience and life of Hazel. She can.
2. Ansel Elgort is also a huge fan of TFiOS (it is, in fact, his favorite book). He was a high school basketball player who also happens to be a very intellectual guy. Most importantly, when he auditioned, he became Augustus. Watching him audition with Shailene, he was just Gus and she was just Hazel. He understood Gus, and clearly had a very deep and thoughtful relationship with the book. Honestly, I’m a bit confused as to how you can dislike an actor whose work you have definitionally never seen, since his first movie isn’t out yet.
3. Novelists do not cast movies, so these were not my decisions (although I did have a lot of input). But I’m defending them because I think they’re both perfect for their parts (and I’d tell you if I felt otherwise).
4. There seems to be some concern that Ansel and Shailene are playing siblings in a different movie. I guess I can understand that, but they’re actors. They can play different roles. They’ll look different and act different and be different. I mean, no one watched Silver Linings Playbook and thought, “When did Katniss move to the suburbs of Philadelphia?”
If the movie works, you’ll sit down in the theater and you won’t say, “Oh look it’s Shailene Woodley,” or, “Oh, look, it’s Tris from Divergent.” You’ll say, “Holy wow Hazel Grace.”